Have you ever been in a relationship that felt like your were watching a sad video of yourself and your partner? One that seemed like a test; and every meeting seemed rehearsed. How tedious! What a bore! What a paradox it is to be in a relationship and yet be so lonely. It almost feels like I am the wind, ever so present but invisible, and it is pathetic. Who is this person am with? I look at him and all i see is darkness in which I am ensnared. I am trapped in a prison without walls, a gate or locks. This obscurity is the feeling of a fall into a bottomless pit; all you know is that you are falling, oblivious of your what the future brings. One thing that is certain is that there will be no light still. I look into his eyes and I see nothing, they dont light up, neither do they pierce my soul, they only stare back at me empty. His kiss, his touch... only spell out DESIRE and not AFFECTION. Like a robot he is programmed to say all the right things (which you obviously yearn ...